This is my third and final post explaining why I was absent from the blogosphere for so long. For those who might have missed them, here are links to my first, as well as my second and third excuses.
Today's excuse has a lot to do with the fact that we are somewhat in a holding pattern. Basically, we are doing a lot of waiting to see what happens next.
We've had a couple of pretty significant things happen over the past few of weeks.
Most importantly, Danielle started medication. Although it's really too early to tell if the drugs will make a lasting change in her mood or behavior, the initial signs are promising. I haven't wanted to say much about it, one way or the other, because I feel like I'm walking around the house constantly waiting for the other shoe to drop. We've seen periods of good behavior before, only to have them end in sudden, overwhelming, and violent explosions. Medication might be a game changer, or it might not. It's just too darn early to tell.
Danielle's new therapist made a preliminary diagnosis a couple of weeks ago, but has since changed her opinion and given a new one. Personally, I think her first opinion was more accurate, but I suppose the official diagnosis doesn't really matter. Whatever label they want to use, as long as it gets the kid some appropriate help, is fine by me. In this case, the treatment for both diagnoses is similar, so it probably doesn't matter if Danielle really suffers from condition a or condition b.
So I haven't blogged, because I'm not sure how much I want to say about any of this. In the past, I've been pretty open about what's gone on, and I'm not sure that the resulting headaches (and child abuse referrals) have been worth it. I'm really torn -- I think the world needs to see just how bad things can be for adoptive families, but I'm not sure that the personal costs (created by trolls, bashers, stalkers and false abuse reports) make it worthwhile.
Someone needs to tell these stories. I'm just not sure it should be me any longer.
What Now?
3 years ago
I hear ya. It's draining, isn't it?
ReplyDeleteI've been waiting on the other shoe to drop in some stuff in my own life, and a friend said to me that I was so caught up in waiting on the other shoe to drop that I was going to end up taking it off and throwing it at myself. Or something like that. She made more sense when she said it. LOL But basically I was having a hard time relaxing and enjoying the moment where everything seemed to be going well. Things were going too easy. I kept waiting on something to go wrong, as it always does, and was about to do something stupid to just get it over with already. She was saying that I needed to just let it alone. Let things unravel as they may and take each thing as it comes. I took her advice, thankfully, and the other shoe has yet to drop. I keep pinching myself because it doesn't feel real. But anyway, my point was that I hope you can enjoy this time with Danielle without worrying too much about the what ifs or the whens (when the meds stop working, etc).
Glad you were able to get away for another camping trip, even if you did have to work through it. xoxo
Glad to hear that Danielle is finally on mediation and here's hoping and praying that it works - for her sake and for yours.
ReplyDeletefingers crossed that things level out for you and hoping that the first meds are the right ones.
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